"It’s my 3rd year taking Summer Intensive classes at WSPA. And since my first class till now.. I’ve grown, I know I have.
But maan do I choke and get all nervous when it comes to performing. And no, not at competition. We go in ready for that shit. (Big ups to mr director himself, Patrick Cruz) I’m talking about performing in groups at workshops / at the studio at practice / auditions=xxxxx.. that whole thing. I hype myself up way too much —and then forget. When I just learned it! That is exactly what I need to work on this year; to be able to learn and perform what I’ve learned with the confidence I’ve proved to have this year. Seriously, I get.. nervous/shy idk what it is I just get sooo … scared. I act like i’ve never gotten up and danced for these people before!
I dance at WSPA because I like to do it, I look forward to it, I get anxious/excited about it, it’s something I do FOR ME. Not a lot of things in my life have that effect on me. It’s an experience I KNOW I would’ve missed out on if I never took that first S.I class back in 2007. It’s an on-going learning experience and I think that’s why I like it as much as I do. I learn something about myself all the time. It just.. it’s a good feeling, dancing. I have so much to say………… it’s annoying that I can’t find a way to put it all into words. One week, 530-730.. I need to enjoy myself, have fun, and learn a thing or two from these very talented people I’ve so willingly surrounded myself with."
P. Cruz's class was good today. Like always haha. He brings something different everytime. Goodshit.
-Mel
